A shadow looms on Kashmir’s shelter homes after activists expose ‘child abuse’

First appeared in Free Press Kashmir on September 15, 2018 and later a different version appeared in Asia Times on September 24, 2018.

Free Press Kashmir 

https://freepresskashmir.com/2018/09/15/a-shadow-looms-on-kashmirs-shelter-homes-after-activists-expose-child-abuse/

Asia Times: 

http://www.atimes.com/article/kashmir-officials-move-to-stop-child-abuse-in-private-shelters/

By Sheikh Saqib

Every year swarms of children from faraway places of Jammu and Kashmir are being sent to private shelter homes in towns for upbringing and learning. But they don’t always find the safe corners and proper learning atmosphere away from their homes. Lately when women activists unearthed abuse in one of the child shelter homes in Srinagar, it triggered a series of official summons exposing misconduct in many such grooming spaces.

Inside the shabby premises of a private shelter home in Srinagar’s Rajbagh, Ali, 12, is propped up against the dirt stained wall. His unwashed clothes give an impression that the personal hygiene is yet to be regulated in the informal institute, functioning like an observatory.

Ali and other children have been sent to the city by their parents to excel in studies, ignoring the functioning of these homes.

The home is called Babul Islam, which has been registered as a trust by the Mohalla Committee in 2017, with a local Altaf Dar as its chairman.

The building sheltering these children also houses non-local laborers, and some families from Kashmir countryside. The presence of these tenants and their unregulated habits has already cast a shadow on the children’s routine care, proper hygiene and learning atmosphere.

This messy in-house conduct was recently exposed by the members of the Kashmir Women’s Collective (KWC)—a group of women volunteers campaigning for women and child rights in the valley—when they visited the house, and reported the abusive situation.

“The house is lacking the basic facilities,” says Ambreen, a member of KWC. “There’s no security, and no one intervened when we stepped into the house. Who is responsible for these children’s protection there?”

Once the investigation proceeded, many more undesirable things surfaced.

“We also came to know that the children were forced to beg, that too, in the holy month of Ramazan,” says Ambreen. “This is a glaring example of a child abuse.”

But the house chief, Altaf Dar, a well-built man sporting salt and pepper beard, derides the allegation as some ‘nonsensical witch hunt on the house management by some loose activists in town’.

“See this! And this as well,” he takes one on the house tour, showing the washroom and the kitchen. “Aren’t they in  good condition? So, what’s this fuss about unhygienic conditions?"

For Dar, this semi-furnishing state is seemingly a normal in-house conduct, including sheltering the girl students in the space shared by non-local labourers and local tenants.

Dar’s assertions and posturing, however, hasn’t stopped KWC to probe more into the matter.

“To understand the in-house activities in a detailed manner, we approached students,” says Advocate Sabreen Malik who works with KWC. “Girls were very scared as they were undergoing emotional abuse. So they refused to talk, while boys were very ignorant about the happenings around. We tried to contact their parents but they didn’t respond.”

After the activists exposed the murkyhouse affairs, girl students were evacuated and shifted to the government house Nariniketan, Shalimar.

At Nariniketan, Superintendent Afrooza Ahmad says the guardians of the girls were asked to report to Shalimar, as soon as possible, in order to take them home.

“The girls refused to talk about the misery they had faced in the house,” says the superintendent, who’s in her mid-fifties. “We’ve all the details of the girls, but we cannot share till the case reaches to its conclusion.”

Another private shelter home in Bemina run by one Bilal Ahmad is also at the centre of the storm over the ill in-house conduct. Ahmad is being charged by Child Welfare Committee (CWC) department for violating the legal guidelines of Jammu and Kashmir Juvenile Justice Rules.

Many other private shelter homes in Kashmir were lately summoned by CWC, for a detailed debriefing on their house conduct and handling.

“We called them after learning that many of them were not providing separate observation homes for boys and girls, clothing and bedding, proper sanitation and hygiene, and were resorting to physical abuse,” says Munaza Gulzar, Chairman CWC. “There’s a guideline that a juvenile should be classified and segregated according to their age groups, like 0-6, 6-12, 12-16, 16-18. We’ve to make them comfortable and avoid any possible sexual abuse.”

In Rajbagh ‘child abuse’ case, she says, the complaint was registered by the Mohalla committee. “We took cognizance after we came to know that the boys and girls were kept together,” Munaza says. “So, we immediately shifted the girls, as the Jammu and Kashmir Juvenile Justice Act, 2013, does not allow any home to station both boys and girls together.”

At the moment, she says, all the 23 girls are in a state of shock. “They were in trauma when rescued. So, they’ll take some time to get stable and speak.”

While there’re only 70 private shelter homes registered in Kashmir under the Integrated Child Protection Scheme (ICPS), Munaza says, several unregistered homes have to come clean on their conduct. “We came to know that most of these houses are first being registered as trusts or NGOs, before turned into a shelter home for orphans. This is an easy way of registration,” she says. “But there are set guidelines in place for starting a shelter home.”

While norms are being flouted, the abuse seems to have flourished. Both activists and officials dealing with the child abuse cases equally blame the society for their thoughtless conduct towards child care.

Some parents are adamant to admit their wards in private shelters in towns, despite having means and options to school them closer to their homes. “I don’t understand how a person from Reasi is being looked after by a home in Lawipora, Srinagar. Reasi is in Jammu and Lawipora is in Srinagar. There is no cultural connection,” says Munaza. “This is a very ironical situation, and there’s something fishy going on.”

But as CWC and KWC are collectively collecting details of the abuse in the shelter homes across Kashmir, it seems something more “fishy” is likely to come out. However, the conflict-ridden society, where destitution management generally starts and ends with orphanages and charitable bodies, such cases itself deepens the sense of crisis. That’s why, perhaps, it’s the time to put the house in order.

Love Fail: Inside the ‘war zone ward’ where ravaged lovers finally admit defeat

The Story First appeared in FreePress Kashmir on July 16, 2018.

By Sheikh Saqib

As a trauma centre, Srinagar’s SMHS hospital has been catering to the regular rush of young, jilted and poisoned lovers since long now. The cyclic nature of these cases might not be ringing alarm bells around, but they do underscore the relationship crisis in the society.

In the beginning of 2018, a medical examiner in Srinagar’s famed Shri Maharaja Hari Singh Hospital (SMHS) was on his regular duty inside what is popularly known as the ‘war zone ward’ when a boy flanked by a girl was rushed in. He was apparently oblivious of the fact that patients least likely to survive are shifted in that ward.

Barely 20, the boy was vomiting, withering in abdominal pain. A doctor inside the ward was alerted by his colleague about the emergency condition of the boy.

As the examiner remembers, the young patient came holding a bottle of juice in his hand, taking light sips only to feel better and ease the feeling of vomiting. He was accompanied by his long-time girlfriend whom he had come to meet all the way from Jammu.

The examiner placed him on a chair and asked him not to worry. But soon his liver started to fail. His blood pressure had a steep fall. After some time, his kidneys stopped working, and he began bleeding from the nose and the mouth.

Four hours later, to everyone’s shock, he was lying dead on a stretcher, solely mourned by his girlfriend.

After preliminary investigation, the doctors concluded that the patient was either poisoned or had been bitten by a snake. But following a proper medical examination, snake bite was ruled out.

It was now a clear case of poisoning, which had caused multi-organ failure. The deceased had consumed a rodenticide, a poison used to kill rodents.

“As panic gripped the ward, all fingers rose against the girl as the boy was continuously with her,” says a medical examiner, present at the scene. 

The case was later handed over to Jammu and Kashmir Police for investigation.

Whenever such cases arrive in the ward, a medical examiner usually cannot tell whether poison is involved, because the symptoms—diarrhea, vomiting, abdominal pain—are much like those of other disorders. Nor can he necessarily place one at the murder scene. The dying typically takes hours. Also, one can administer poison gradually, a little bit every day.

SMHS’ ‘war zone ward’ has witnessed many such cases of poisoned love. In recent past, a class 12 girl was rushed in, with a frothing mouth, in a dizzying state.

“I was preparing for my board exams when my boyfriend left me,” says Nayeema, recalling the episode with a mixed sense of sadness and shame. “I was with him from the last 8 years. We grew up together. The break-up left me in depression. I could not share this with my parents because the generation gap is such that they won’t understand.”

The stress of not being able to share her agony with her parents made way for poison.

“Majority of such victims are unmarried and dejected lots,” says a doctor, treating patients inside the ward. “They often end up consuming pesticides.”

Even a small register maintained by one of the doctors present in the ward shows that the majority of the poisoning is due to pesticides followed by household agents and pharmaceuticals. The ward witnesses 5 to 6 poison patients on a daily basis, but the percentage of female victims remains on a higher side.

“Females being more emotionally vulnerable edge out males in such cases,” says one of the doctors posted in the emergency ward.

But these ‘love fail’ cases often turn murky, when the poisoned lover on a stretcher is carrying a ‘dark underbelly’.

Abda was in 8th class when she consumed a ‘life-threatening dose’ of an insecticide. She was immediately shifted to the Intensive Care Unit, where she was examined and declared fine, despite her stomach being full and stiff.

“I asked her if she had done any mistake recently which might hurt her family’s reputation,” a doctor who attended her says. “To which, she just replied, ‘Shit’.”

Soon after, doctors did her urine pregnancy test. Everyone was shocked when it turned out positive. To recheck it and reassure themselves, the doctors went for Ultra-sonography test of Abda, which showed a baby in her belly!

Initially, Abda’s mother had said that behind the poison consumption was her daughter’s exam failure. Even she didn’t know about her pregnancy and was shocked to know about it.

The doctors soon admitted Abda. But her mother without informing the examiners took her for abortion to some local clinic in order to ‘save her family’s reputation’.

"When the patient came back, she was in shock, her blood pressure was not recordable. It was probably a complication due to the illegal abortion,” says the doctor.

Abda was immediately shifted to the ICU where she died the next day.

In the same ward where Abda breathed her last some years ago, a private company employee Amir was crying by the bedside of his poisoned girlfriend in 2014.

Only a day before, he had found her lively and chirpy during their usual phone conversation.

“When I heard about her poison consumption, I looked back at my recent mistakes which might have led to this horrific scene, but to my surprise the reason was something else,” Amir says.

Through his contacts, he shortly learned that his girlfriend was dating another person, who had dumped her, forcing her to consume poison.

But sadly, the ‘love in poison’ stories in the ‘war zone ward’ don’t end there.

When in the recent past, Rafeeq was admitted here, it turned out that the teenager had lost his girlfriend whom he had befriended at the peak of his family crisis. Behind the poison was his vanished company that he had with him on long walks and on special occasions.

“When she stopped responding to my calls, I was declared depressed,” says Rafeeq. “After some time, I couldn’t take it anymore and tried to end my life by consuming poison.”

He survived and now calls that step ‘dastardly’.

In the din of routine hospital cries, many such cases often fail to send shockwaves around, and alert the larger societal conscience.

Four years later, as a poison survivor, Rafeeq believes that ‘loving life’ over a deserter is more important and one of the best ways to stop the arrival of poisoned lovers in the ‘war zone ward’.

All the names in the story have been changed to protect identities. 

How cafes in Kashmir are providing spaces for student discussions

The Story first appeared in the Campus Politik section of Newslaudry on June 4, 2018.

By Sheikh Saqib

There is a consensus among students that there is a lack of space for them to express their opinions.

From the infamous march and demonstration by students in the sixties, in front of the UN military observer group in Srinagar, to the turbulence of the 1990s, students in Kashmir now find a sparse space in the city’s cafes for political discussions. This is despite student politics being banned across the valley.

The cafes and historical tea shops in the valley take pride in being widely regarded as centres of political and literary discussions. These places are often filled with youth, vigorously raising their voice and hitting hard at the governing authorities. The sessions usually begin with debates on the daily human rights violations and end with terming the mainstream media houses as ‘fickle’ for swift change their editorial positions. One can witness students taking on the system which carries out war crimes against the people of the state which is very much welcomed in the national media.

Much of their worldview has been shaped through conversations at shopfronts and cafes. Most of these students who call themselves learners speak aloud at these places, perhaps the only place that allows them to reach out to a larger audience. The heated arguments soar with passing time, inflating their passion to speak on unaddressed issues.

Meet the students

At University of Kashmir's Aijaz Ka Dhabba, Rayan 21, a student of Mass Communication, is waiting to have an interactive session with his friends. His wait lasts until two young boys walk in. They move to the backyard of the Dhabba, facing the dead end so that their discussion isn't overheard.

For the students, going to the tea shops is as important as any other daily essential. There is a shared sentiment -- in order to understand the power they need to sit at one table and give a succinct overview of their creative ideas and roll them into reality.

“I have been going to cafes since I was in standard 10. What these cafes are doing is facilitation. They often provide us with a space to discuss whatever interests us without dictating terms to us,” said Rayan who is currently doing his masters in journalism at Kashmir University.

“At University we cannot react to the changing political atmosphere as everyone's activity is being scrutinised and everyone is in fear, no one wants to represent the crowd and risk their career, therefore every agitation in universities and schools are faceless and leaderless. But that doesn’t mean that we shy away from the ground reality. We do discuss issues at different places, mostly in cafes and shopfronts, and also visit far off places to monitor the situation.”

Another journalism student, Hamzah, 22, states, “But the only place where we can actually give vent to our anger is social media." He adds, “We comment on issues, talk about politics and try to criticise everything we can.”

Other than giving vent to their anger on social media, students often work collectively on various events. “We often do voluntary work for Association of Parents of Disappeared Persons (APDP) for their protests. We often show up on International Day of the Disappeared to present our work as a mark of protest. Besides, we sit with the distressed families of the victims and offer our hearty support to them,” said Waseem, another Kashmir University student.

“Student involvement in political paradigm is important,” said Hamzah, adding, “Gone are the days when student unions were operated by middle-aged and senior citizens. With the new emerging trends, development, conscience and more importantly the intellectual and competent youth who play an important role in giving a voice for a political change and other internal changes in the society.”

Student unions have been banned since the armed rebellion of the late 1980s across the valley. The entire political class from time to time made false promises to restore it. Though for a temporary span of time, the ban was revoked in 2007, it was again imposed in 2009 by a National Conference-Congress coalition government after against the double rape and murder case in Shopian district of Kashmir.

“One can understand that the event of May 17, 2010, when Kashmir University witnessed scenes when students boycotted classes to protest against the demolition of Kashmir University Students Union (KUSU) office, makes it clear that no student politics would be allowed on campus,” says Waseem.

Waseem further states, “The restriction on student politics and the fear of those in power has forced us to land in cafes, Dhabbas and shopfronts. On one hand, I think banning student union was a good idea because the culture of talks now is not limited at one place, one can witness literary and political discussion at every cafe one visits,” he laughs.

Hamzah walks in and describes how the space is now limited for students. “We have either social media or cafes to talk or express our opinion, even though some of the artists based in the valley have a great following on these sites but campus politics makes a difference. It ignites your passion to talk on unaddressed issues,” he concludes.

Sometimes these students also lack the support of their mates who may be locked at home by their parents to avoid any undesirable punishment from government agencies. A student of Presentation Convent Higher Secondary School, Srinagar, stated: “When I passed my middle school I realised that the time has come for me to creatively resist the things that Indian state has subjected us to."

The student added: “We made a small group of like-minded friends at school which consisted of youngsters who could write, paint, and photograph. We planned to work collectively and take part in what we call resistance. As we took this forward, many had given up not by choice but because they were restricted by their parents from doing anything that could land them in trouble and we finally failed.”

There is a consensus among students that there is a lack of space for them to express their opinions. “We feel that the prison chains are so tight that it is even difficult to breathe, leave alone to speak on issues,” said a student of medicine at Government Medical College (GMC), Srinagar. 

Students remain hopeful and urge local journalists, human rights activists and other people who belong to academics should come forward and provide a space to students where they can read, discuss and most importantly interact with an experienced class of people who understand the valley and its conflict. The onus is on them to help the young students come out of four walls of the classroom and help them grow.

*Names have been changed to maintain their privacy.

‘Silence is not always golden’: Aasia Jeelani, the Kashmiri activist who spoke up for the unheard

She was one of the first journalist-activists who gave a voice to the oppressed women and fought for them with all her might and heart. Sheikh Saqib sketches her profile for Kashmir Dispatch.

First appeared in Kashmir Dispatch on May 17, 2018.

At a time when the armed rebellion in Kashmir was at its peak, and the ‘killings, torture, harassment and rapes’ by the Indian armed forces were the norm of the day, it was a big deal to stand up to the might of the Indian agencies. At a time when the oppressed had begun to accept the oppression as their fate, a young woman in her 20s stood up in a male-dominated society to urge them to speak up and get their voices heard. At a time when there was no social mechanism to help the victims or when there was no religious pro-activism to rehabilitate the valley’s half widows, the same young lady led the way. 

Aasia Jeelani came and went ahead of her times perhaps. She lived the entire 30 years of her life with a purpose to serve the truth and to help the poor and the oppressed by all means possible. In doing so, she turned out to be an inspiration for a generation of souls who carry on today what she died fighting for. 

The rise and the loss of a young activist-journalist

 Born on 9th Feb, 1974 in Srinagar, the summer capital of Kashmir, Aasia completed her schooling from Presentation Convent Higher Secondary School Srinagar. With a flair for writing, after her graduation in science from Government College for Women in Srinagar, she pursued a masters in journalism from Kashmir University with great enthusiasm. 

Aasia’s first journalism stint was as a trainee reporter and researcher with Agence France Presse’s (AFP) Kashmir Bureau from 1998 to 2001.

Next she interned with The Times of India in New Delhi for a year. Since her creative mind sought freedom in work, she left the daily in 2002 to join The Jammu and Kashmir Coalition of Civil Society (JKCCS). This proved to be a turning point in her life. 

“I want to make people know what is truly taking place in Kashmir,” Aasia had said during her visit to the Netherlands in 2003. 

But what was exactly the reason for taking up activism, that too at a time when the situation in Kashmir was nothing short of scary?

Dr. Shabina Miraj, a childhood friend of Aasia and the then president of the newly launched Kashmiri Women’s Initiative for Peace and Disarmament (KWIPD), throws light on how it all began. 

“In 1989, when Aasia and I were in 10th grade, the armed struggle became more prominent. Aasia, who used to live in Downtown – known for its pro-azadi people – witnessed the daily crackdowns and violence by the Indian Army,” says Dr Miraj. “Especially, when women became the victims of molestation and rape by the Indian armed forces, she decided not to suffer silently, and changed for the rest of her life. She started thinking about the fate of these women who were raped and whose husbands disappeared in the custody of Indian Army.” 

Dr Shabina Miraj describes how sexual violence against Kashmiri women changed Aasia. “I saw a change in Aasia. She became more interested in doing something for the people,” she says. 

In her initial journalism years , Aasia also worked on a monthly newsletter “Informative Missive” published by the Public Commission on Human Rights. Later in 2002, Aasia and her friends launched the Kashmiri Women’s Initiative for Peace and Disarmament (KWIPD). She became its first head. 

It was just a beginning. Aasia soon launched The Voices Unheard, a quarterly newsletter under KWIPD’s banner. It went on to bring out several stories of the suffering of women and children living under the occupation of the Indian forces. Aasia was the first editor of the popular newsletter in which she wrote most of the articles herself. She was a living example of ground reporting. Her yearning for truth took her to far off places, sometimes even near the Line of Control, in search of the stories she wanted to tell. She became a voice of the unheard miseries of people, especially women. Her work attached her personally to the victims of rights violations and gave her a reason to set up tailoring and pickle centres for widows and orphans at different places in Kashmir. 

On April 20, 2004 A taxicab, carrying her and other activist colleagues from Jammu and Kashmir Coalition of Civil Society (JKCCS), was blown up in a landmine blast in Chandigam village of northern Kashmir’s Kupwor district. Aasia and the cab’s driver, Ghulam Nabi Sheikh were killed on the spot while JKCCS’s senior member Khurram Parvez, (then 26), was seriously injured in the blast; his right limb was amputated later. Three other volunteers of the group also sustained injuries in the blast. 

“The vehicle was completely damaged. Asia and the driver were lying on the road, unconscious,” says Sadiq Ali, one of the three volunteers who survived the blast. “We asked for help from a nearby army camp. We screamed, shouted but to no avail.”

The team was on its way to verify reports of people fleeing out of fear of coercion by soldiers to vote during a parliamentary election, when their vehicle was blown up by a landmine. 

Thus Aasia became perhaps the first woman in the short history of the Kashmir conflict to have died in the line of duty. She had given a slip to her family who would have probably stopped her from taking the risky trip that even most men would have avoided. 

The news of her death came as a shock not only to her family and associates but also to all the people of Kashmir, who had known her for her work. 

“I was completely stunned when I was first told over the phone that Aasia had just been killed. Though I was sitting in a world far removed from the daily tragedies of Kashmir, I couldn’t help but feel an impending sense of desolation while listening to the heartbreak and anguish resonating in the voices of those who were dealing with the immediate crises on the ground. It was hard for me to witness, in those moments that those who have been humbly striving to empower Kashmiri society were now almost paralysed by a sense of powerlessness,” writes Usmaan Raheem Ahmed, a research scholar in Fletcher school of Law and Diplomacy, Harvard University in a book titled “Aasia, Martyr of Peace”. 

Voices Unheard: “Silence is not always golden” 

Aasia became the voice of the unheard through her publication, Voices Unheard. The cover of its first volume read: “Her ways are ways of pleasantness and all her paths are peace.” It was the first magazine in conflict- torn Kashmir that highlighted the violence against women and children. By far, it turned out to be one of the major contributions of the young activist-journalist. 

Through her writings, she urged the oppressed people of Kashmir not to suffer in silence. She strongly believed the stories of atrocities by the Indian armed forces needed to be told to the world outside Kashmir. 

In her article, “An Era of Silence,” she wrote: 

“It is we who have to strive for our fellow beings and devise means and ways for helping the victims and bringing the culpable to book. Our silence will go a long way in boosting the morale of the guilty who feel they can get away with anything. Silence is not always golden, it can be deadly too. Women don’t have to compromise on vulnerable issues, strong voice is needed to agitate the atrocities”. 

Advocate Parvez Imroz, the president of the JKCCS, says Aasia was like a war correspondent, who visited far off places in search of stories of torture and rape and to record statements of rape victims. 

Her brave fight for half widows 

Aasia was one of the first activists in Kashmir who fought for and gave a voice to half widows, then a new entity in Kashmir: women whose husbands went missing in the custody of the Indian armed forces. In the very first edition of The Voices Unheard, Aasia highlighted cases of the missing men and the stories of half widows. There was a growing number of such cases in Kashmir during the 1990s and early 2000s. The security forces would pick up men without declaring their arrest, and later allegedly kill them in fake encounters. The whereabouts of most such men are unknown to this date.

Aasia, in her first article, “And the search is on…” described the condition of half widows in quite moving words: 

Women have arrived and arrived all over the world but here women have arrived to suffer and suffer in silence. 

In the same article she also wrote, “Women in Kashmir are suffering, a mother has lost a son, a sister has lost a brother, a daughter has lost a father and a wife has lost her husband. Yet all are living and braving all oddities that life has thrown at them, hoping some day, their dear ones will arrive and all the sufferings will end. And this speaks volumes about women’s emancipation in Kashmir. And until the sufferings end the search goes on and on.” 

Such cases of “enforced disappearances” – as they came to be known as – brought a period of pain and agony in which the women and children were worst hit. Women, most of whom waited for their husbands for years together, dared not stand up for their rights, including that of remarriage. The idea of remarriage for a half widow was a social taboo. It still is. Many women who remarried had to face a hostile society and even antagonistic families. Widows, who had children and wanted to remarry for economical or moral support, were afraid to take the bold step as their relatives and even neighbours would warn them of dire consequences if they contemplated the idea of re-marriage.

In the second volume of the Voices Unheard, Aasia wrote a strong and bold piece titled “Half-widow, half life and half truth”, advocating for social and religious support for half-widows who want to remarry. 

Aasia wrote, “Kashmiris are suffering and amidst this pain the solutions have to be worked out. The need of the hour is that ulama come forward and educate the society about the plight and provisions in Islam, so that when any such woman wants to re-marry, people should welcome and support her move, and she takes the second journey of life with a sense of ease and not guilt. Young men should come forward and offer to marry them, it is we who have to work for solutions and not depend on outsiders the way we have been depending on them to solve the Kashmir dispute, results notwithstanding.”

 Social work: ‘If Dalit women can make it, why can’t we?’ 

Aasia did not only tell the stories of human rights violations and the victims, but also made efforts to organise community help for the victims. She was moved by their condition and the depressing situation. She became involved in the activities of the Association of Parents of Disappeared Persons (APDP). With the help of her associates, she set up a self-help group where girls from different parts of the valley were trained. The group later evolved as the Aasia Memorial Foundation. She was also a part of APDP victim-donor program in which a family of the disappeared is adopted and provided financial help. 

After a visit to Chennai where Aasia had gone for training to launch self-help groups for the destitute women in Kashmir, there was a lack of response from the women victims. 

She shouted, “If Dalit women can make it why cannot we?” recounts the lawyer-activist Parvez Imroz. She was keen on a collective action to prepare the victims for self-sustenance instead of depending on pittances.

 Whe the idea of organising self-help groups for women was discussed, Aasia urged that the same should be established in each and every village and neighbourhood of Kashmir. Aasia had said, “Let’s get started right now and it will happen in a matter of months, not years.” 

How family and friends remember Aasia 

The spirit of helping the needy was deep-rooted in her character. “When she was four and a half years old, on an Eid, I gave her five rupees. With the money in her hand, she left only to come back after giving it to a poor lady,” remembers Jahan Ara Jeelani, Aasia’s mother. 

Aasia mother recalls how she used to enjoy marriage ceremonies. A perfection in the colour of lehanga (the bridal attire), variety of dresses mattered the most to her, recalls her mother. “She used to live each and every moment with great energy.” 

“Tears trickle down my eyes whenever I remember her. Her presence is felt. Her loss has to be endured but is unbearable. We remember her every moment, every time, while we eat and sleep. We miss her,” says Bashir Ahmed Jeelani, Aasia’s father, while tears roll down his cheeks. 

Aasia had also set up a foundation for poor women where they made pickles and clothes to sustain themselves. Her mother says she was not aware that the baby in her lap would one day do such a commendable work. “She would always say: Mummy pray for me, as you are very near to God’s house.” 

Aasia is also survived by her siblings Dr. Snober Jeelani and Umar Jeelani. 

Human rights activist, Khuram Parvez, who worked with Aasia and was also her friend says the most important aspect of her was that she was a pious girl. “People write about her as a committed and a dedicated person. But for her all these things didn’t matter.” 

Talking about her professional approach to work, Parvez recalls Aasia would often say, “If somebody wants to do something let him do it professionally and with a sense of responsibility.” 

Aasia’s unkept promise to a friend 

On Oct 26, 2003 Aasia attended a peace management conference in Amsterdam where women activists from other conflict zones in the world such as Palestine, Iraq, the Balkans, Azerbaijan, Turkey, Kosovo, and Macedonia were in attendance. Aasia became friends with a Dutch peace activist Marjan Lucas. “She really impressed the conference. She wanted to have her story heard. 

In the conference she said, ‘I came all the way from Kashmir, not to listen to all of you, yes I also listen to all of you, but I also want you to listen to my story, to our story,” remembers Marjan. 

Towards the end of the meet, Marjan remembers praising Aasia for a scarf she wore during the conference. But Marjan didn’t know Aasia would leave a letter for her covered in the same scarf before flying back to Kashmir. “In the letter she wrote on our friendship and she also promised me in the letter that she would see me soon in Kashmir, but that never happened,” says Marjan Lucas with moist eyes. 

Beyond Bipin Rawat’s remarks, Kashmir’s education system does need control

The article first appeared in FreePress Kashmir magazine on 5th Feb, 2018.

By Sheikh Saqib

Fearing ‘radicalization’, the Indian army chief lately asked for control in Kashmir’s schools. But beyond the military talk, the Valley-based schools do need some control to shed off its herd-mentality-producing image to emerge as a creative endeavor.

As Lala Sheikh Restaurant’s unwashed walls match with the color of his skull cap, Nawaz Zehgir keenly observes the people sitting around him. In this crammed tea shop at Srinagar’s Poloview—once graced by the likes of Ali Mohammad Jinnah—he is cooling his heels to have an interactive session with his friends.

This 19-year-old youth often turns up in this smoke-filled restaurant to articulate his views on varied topics and subjects. His wait lasts till some hippie bunch of young boys and a girl walk in. For the day, they’re to talk about the prevailing education system in Kashmir.

It’s depressing, Nawaz begins, as the commotion inside grows. “I believe the real education comes from here — from tea shops and streets,” he says, turning chirpy. “I find more interesting talks and teachings in a tea shop than in the classes.”

Much of this worldview has been shaped by his regular hangouts with his street-smart friends—who discuss almost everything under the sun on the shop-fronts, rather than in classrooms.

“Spaces determine who you’re,” he continues, as others sip tea and play his captive audience. “If they’re suppressive, restrictive and controlled, then it’s bound to cull one’s creative acumen. I see our classrooms no different.”

The opinioned youngster reckons that one just needs to travel across Kashmir to access the state of dismal education. “But such controlled spaces can only produce literates than educates.”

He takes calculative pauses to veer the conversation towards the Indian army chief’s latest talk. Addressing the media on the eve of the Army Day recently, General Rawat had said, “In the schools in Jammu and Kashmir, what teachers are teaching should not be taught. In schools in J&K, there can be seen two maps, one of India, another of J&K. Why do we need a separate map for J&K? What does it teach the children? Most misguided youth come from schools where they are being radicalised.”

Nawaz takes a dig at the general’s remark to delight of his friends. “Here is this General making us believe that our schools have become ‘radicalized’ centres,” he says to rapt attention of his friends. “Somebody should tell him that our schools aren’t even inspiring us for critical thinking—leave alone radicalizing us.”

The existing system of learning, Nawaz continues, has only reduced our campuses as time pass spaces “where we only clear the futile exercise of exams and acquire those meaningless degrees”.

Much of these remarks resound in the restaurant hosting different crowd of people from different backgrounds, seeking different directions in life. Perhaps, the informal chat spaces like these do play their part in the narrative building—which otherwise is hardly being encouraged in formal spaces like classrooms and educational campus, where even student activism is banned.

Memorizing is understood as learning, the 20-year-old medical student joins in. “Most of our teachers make no effort to develop the soft skills in students,” Haris Khan thumps the table with his clenched fist.

Most of these students—calling themselves wanderers, seekers, learners—speak quite aloud, thus frequently grabbing the attention of others in the restaurant. But the boys don’t seem to mind stirring what many inside are probably dismissing as ‘the storm in a teacup’.

With his animated facial expressions, Haris expresses regret about his school days. The focus out there remained only scoring big marks, he says.

Even the bigger menace remains how successive governments have failed to address the student problems, says Ifra Malik. “Every student is exceptionally gifted in particular ways,” reckons this Class 11 student. “But then the omnipresent teacher-student communication gap often wastes the student potential.”

Though being a girl prevents her becoming a part of shop-front discussions, she compensates it through discussing matters with her friend circle in cafes and tea shops. For her, the entire education system is an oppressive unit.

“At times,” she says, “even my parents thought of de-schooling to save me from becoming a lost and confused soul. They equate education with pure business. And they were quite disheartened how students are being punished for every single mistake rather than to groom them into a well-meaning person with polished skills and talents.”

For much of the mess, they blame Kashmir society’s illusion to create a ‘settled-future’ job image of the government teacher.

“So,” says Nawaz, “once you’re a government teacher, you’re hardly accountable—though lately they tried to stop promotions of some teachers for producing poor results. So in a way, for most of the government teachers, teaching is merely securing a settled job than a service to help grow the young minds.”

As long as teaching is a desperate employment seeking option than a matter of conviction, till then, “we poor souls will continue to suffer.”

Such spoken concern simply defies the image of the valley, which for centuries, has remained the home of the great scholars, visiting it in search of learning and knowledge. Education was imparted from madrasas, maktabas, khanqas and patshalas. Even during the medieval period, Kashmir stood as a pioneer of progress and a beacon of enlightenment for the other parts of the world.

“Teachers at school need to foster the process of interaction between students,” says Hadi Wani. This 17-year-old student believes that until and unless students are not provided a platform where they can engage in interaction and share their ideas, the system is not going to change.

The friends nod their heads in agreement

“Where Is My Father?”Ask These Children In The Kashmir Valley

By Sheikh Saqib

The story first appeared in  The Quint on 30th August and then appeared in YKA on 1st September, 2017.

Fathers are regarded as our guardians. From helping out when children need academic help to being there for them when they are struggling emotionally. They are an integral part of our growing years. I consider myself blessed to have a father. This makes me feel sad when I think about the many children in the valley who don’t know whether their fathers are living or dead.

Shaista, Mehwish and Asha crave for their father’s company. Today, they cling on to any shred of hope that could bring the news of their father. Any news.

However, there is assistance available for children without fathers. It comes from the Association of Parents of Disappeared Persons (APDP). Imad Nazir, a worker at the organisation said, “APDP takes the education of these children very seriously. We provide all children of the victims of Enforced Disappearances (ED) with educational support. This includes a school fee, uniform, books and other items required by the children.”

The organisation also provides the children with medical or psychological support, if they need it.

Writing To A Father Who Has Disappeared

For 15-year-old Shaista Nazir Illahi, her father is a source of strength, even though he isn’t with her. She says, “Every night before I go to sleep, I write in my personal diary and feel like I am talking to him through it. I ask him to come back and take away my loneliness. I don’t know where my dad is, but wherever he is, I want him to know that his absence has made our lives miserable.”



Shaista recounts the night her father was allegedly picked up by the Indian Army when he was driving back home, late after a day at work. Her father – Nazir Ahmed Illahi – was a driver, who according to Shaista was picked up by the army in Srinagar’s Bemina area on a summer night in 2003. He hasn’t returned since then.

As she speaks, her mother’s eyes well up too. Shanaza Bano, a homemaker says, “He was innocent. He had never been a part of the violence in the 1990s or after. He only used to think about his family, about his kids and nothing else. He was aware of his responsibilities and used to treat everyone in the family with love and care.”

These days, Shaista, her mother and her younger sister are looked after by Shanaza’s brothers, who live in Chadoora in Budgam district. While Shaista’s younger sister Mehwish stays in Chadoora for her studies, Shaista continues to live with her mother at their place in Illahi Bagh and studies in a school there.

As she narrates her ordeal, Shaista pauses occasionally to brush away a tear. With every pause, silence descends the room. Suddenly, her sister Mehwish breaks the silence as she enters with a cup of tea. She then sits, propped up against a wall beside her sister and listens quietly.

Shaista continues, “Whenever I go to school and see younger kids walking hand-in-hand with their parents, I begin to picture myself in their place. I imagine my mom and dad taking me to school, asking my teacher how my studies are going. I imagine my dad buying me new clothes for various occasions. But at the end of the day, it is just my imagination – one that is vastly different from my reality. The reality is that I don’t have a father.”

Being the elder daughter, Shaista has matured since the crisis. Her younger sister may still make childish demands from her mother, but Shaista buries her wants deep inside of her, well aware that her mother can’t afford everything she craves. She adds, “After my father’s disappearance, my grandparents and other relatives started taunting my mother in various little ways.”

The horror still continues after the death of the grandparents. Those days are the worst, confesses Mehwish, “My grandparents are dead, but their actions after my father’s disappearance still haunt me.”

Mehwish, like her sister, has also found a way of communicating with her father through her diary that she started when she was 13. “Every night, before going to sleep, I write to my father. I tell him about the family’s financial crisis. I tell him about how mom and I find it hard to buy daily essentials. I tell him about my friends who come to school with their father. I tell him about the festivals, I tell him about the dresses I want to buy on Eid, but he never replies,” she says.

Shaista still hopes to see her father alive. She doesn’t know if he is still is alive but she doesn’t have a grave to visit. Every morning she wakes up and searches every room in the house for him, hoping that he may have come back in the night. “Hope is the only thing that keeps us going. My mother hopes, my little sister hopes and I hope. That’s what keeps us going.”

“Where Is My Father?”, Asks Asha Rehman

On August 2, 2005, Asha Rehman (now 12) lost her father.

“I was one or two years old when my father, Abdul Rasheed aka Mania Tancha was picked up by 28 RR Indian Army from our home, to never return,” she says.

Asha Rehman is the youngest in her family and lives with her mother and four siblings. After her father went missing, the family faced a lot of difficulties. The children were so young at the time that Asha’s two elder brothers who hadn’t even passed their class 10 board examinations had to go out to search for work. Asha says, “Mere sab dost apne baba ke saath shopping pe jaate hai, cheeze laate hai aur mujhe dikhate hai. (All my friends go shopping with their father and buy new things and then show them to me.)”

She has now left her studies and goes to a local sewing factory where she learns to darn clothes. Asha adds, “My brothers do a lot for me. They take care of everything. But still, having a father makes a lot of difference.”

Apart from two elder brothers who are labourers, Asha also has two sisters. Shameema Bano, 25, who is married and has a son and Mariam Jan, 18. If Asha’s father was around, she and her siblings would have been studying and pursuing their dreams. But they currently work at young ages just to feed themselves.

Asha has only one question for the governing authorities – “Where is my father?”

 The Current Scenario

Today, the Kashmir valley is one of the most militarized zones in the world. With about 7,00,000 armed and paramilitary forces stationed here, the ratio of civilian to security personnel is about 1:7. The life and liberty of Kashmir’s citizens are currently governed by laws such as the Jammu and Kashmir Public Safety Act, Jammu and Kashmir Disturbed Areas Act, and the Armed Forces Special Powers Act, 1990.

Unofficial estimates put the number of disappeared persons between 1989 and 2006 at anywhere between 8000-10,000. A majority of those who’ve disappeared are young men, including minors; others include people of all ages, professions and backgrounds, many of whom have no connection with the armed opposition groups operating in Kashmir.

Although India signed the International Convention for Protection of All Persons from Enforced Disappearances in 2007, it has failed to ratify the Convention and only a fraction of the cases on disappearances have been investigated.

Although the number of disappearances has reduced in the recent past, the struggle for justice in existing cases continues.

That long summer night when Burhan Wani died

The article first appeared in the valleys newly magazine FreePressKashmir on 8th July and then went for Pakistan's national daily The Express Tribune.

By Sheikh Saqib

I can hear gun-barrel thuds. Everyone around me is in shock. Ours is the house packed with mourners. My grandmother has passed two days ago. Twilight is nearing. We are supposed to serve evening meals to our relatives before they would head home. But these fireworks and anti-India slogans in my neighbourhood are making their outward movement uncertain, very uncertain.

A disturbing word doing rounds is about the fallen Titan. Commander Burhan Muzzafar Wani has met a tragic end in Kokernag. I can hear a growing street commotion. Its defiant intensity is growing. Perhaps, a signature stone-smoke confrontation is about to start.

“How long is it going to continue,” I ask my father, sitting next to me.

“I don’t know,” he replies in a babbled manner.

Nobody is sure. Just nobody.

I stir the curtains of my room to look outside through an old window, my sightseeing spot for years now. But it isn’t the usual scene.

I can see the street outside surrounded by tall trees on its peripheries upto a distant point where a large grey smoke of tear gas shells is storming the sky. Not a single mortal is in sight. Only lumps of smoke coming out of everywhere.

I am 17, and never have I witnessed the awful feeling of helplessness and anger among people like in this night. I can hear their cries. I contemplate in a deep thought, how long is it going to continue?

Knowing all well how dangerous it’s to saunter outside, all I yearn for is to go outside and join the mourners to give vent to my brewing anger. But immediately, my father steps in and shuts the window. “Don’t take your head out!” he reprimands me. “Bullets don’t discriminate.”

The mourners are huddled in the lobby of our house. No one is daring to leave for their home. Most of them are praying: God protect all of us, and all outside. The popping sound of gunshots becomes louder as it comes closer and closer.

“I guess, they might have killed scores of people,” says one of my cousin brothers, terrified. Escalating tension is depriving everyone of their sleep. It seems, a relative muses, the dreaded 90s are back.

But, the night seems unending. It’s getting longer and making the idea of tomorrow terrifying. My mother’s welled up eyes are exposing her fears. She is scared of an incoming danger, so is everyone inside. We can’t even mourn.

“Protesters must be fighting a pitched battle in Shalteng chowk,” uncle whispers. “Gunshots can be heard from that direction.” A small square of just 60 steps away from my neighbourhood, Shalteng chowk consists of various stores of dull bricks on all its sides. People often are seen busy in their work there.

But, that is past. Now, the situation is different.

“I am scared of the police,” muffles my brother. The words—police, fear, danger, kill, torture—aren’t new. I learnt them the day I started understanding words. Infact these are the only words I speak frequently. Call it my—no—call it our ‘paranormal’, if not a ‘new-normal’.

With these thoughts, I sit petrified on the floor of my room. So are the people at my stay. Father and I want to confirm that everybody is fine. We are handicapped. We are helpless. The mobile connectivity has been snapped. We are back to medieval era tonight and the entire valley has become a battlefield.

“The military has destroyed everything outside, from cars to houses,” says uncle. “I think they have gone mad, and may go for the worst.”

I hastily snoop through the window in a dark room to avoid giving the forces outside any clue that I am watching them. I see guns hanging around their shoulder and truncheons in their hand. They are scrutinizing every movement of the inhabitants of my Mohalla. The resentment on their face reveals all the hate they have for us. The situation outside is formidable.

But the long awaited dawn finally comes. With the light, comes the realisation: We all survived, just for another day, perhaps!

It’s Saturday. Curfew has been imposed by the Indian state. No one is allowed to venture out. With my cousin, I step out through an alternate way to access the situation. Padded up with their black armour, hostile soldiers are everywhere – cradling guns, wearing long camouflage coats, ragged green helmets and jackboots.

“That’s an alien army,” I talk to myself. “They are here for human blood.”

As our eyes reach the other end, we see a battle in the beginning: With mourners on one end and Indian troops on the other.

The uneven battle begins.

We fear to go near. We fear to be shot, to be beaten, to be abused, to be humiliated in our own land. The fear keeps us away. We also know the consequences of joining a peaceful protest would mean the same treatment as for the stone throwing youth or militant. We may suffer a brutal treatment from the aliens with impunity.

We are back home, only to be greeted with the news: “Panch ladke chik maermit[Five boys have been shot dead].” The situation is becoming tenser. Pro-Burhan Wani protests are gripping the Valley. On the streets, the ambulance siren shatters the uneasy calm every now and then. Everybody around me is crying, lamenting the demise of mourners.

“My God protect all of them,” uncle prays, “and not let their blood go in waste!”

My brief meeting with Parveena Ahanger

The article first appeared in the Kashmir Lit on 13th June,2017.


By Sheikh Saqib

The first thing I saw was her hand. Dainty, holding the stick of a placard which said,” where are our dear ones?” Then more of her emerged into the front. The wholesome face, deep eyes ready to flow the tears through her soft cheeks and her hair veiled with a cotton scarf. If there ever was to be a concern for someone, this was it. I flung out my half-finished ice cream in the dirt filled road and realized my direction had changed. I was transported. I was now one among the swarm of people who had come to listen to the Iron Lady of Kashmir, Parveena Ahanger.

This was in the first half of April, last year. Parveena Ahanger had just come to Srinagar’s Pratap Park, Lal Chowk,  to protest against the enforced disappearance, accompanied by parents who had faced a similar loss as her. Indian troops had forcibly disappeared their sons in custody. After that first glimpse, I became her devoted follower and a well-wisher. I sat down in the front row with some people and started listening carefully to her trying not to miss any word.  Behind me, I could see people of different age also teetering, but carefully listening as the Iron Lady talked about her tragedy. The hours were full of emotions. The parents of disappeared persons cried, some even fainted during the 2-hour long sit in protest.

As the protest wore on, my 16-year-old body was consumed with anger against India. Simultaneously I started asking myself the question: how to get Parveenaji to notice me and talk to me in the crowd of people. I wanted to see a smile on her face.
When she concluded the protest, I made my mind to meet her. I started thinking how to meet her. I didn’t want to meet her like a stranger but like her own son. But how? People started vacating the park, one after another and I was still sitting at my place. I was making plans to approach her and talk to her.

Soon after searching the park for someone who could help me, I saw a friend, whom I know very well, he stood chatting with the Iron Lady. I thought this was the direct route to meet her. I immediately started walking towards his direction and made sounds just to get noticed by him. All seemed to go in vain. Finally, I succeeded. He, at first gave me a peculiar look and then suddenly greeted me. I was not interested in his greetings but just wanted him to introduce me to Parveena Ji, whom everyone lovingly calls Jiji. No sooner had we begun chatting that Parveena Ji went to sit under the shade of a big tree with the other activists, who had been part of the protest. They probably had some matters to discuss.

I was sad. She had moved away. I felt everything was going wrong for me.
I started pricking my legs with my fingers, punishing myself for missing the chance. My friend started asking me about my studies and to me, it seemed like worthless talk. Till he asked me if I know Parveena ji. I replied,” ya .. I mean, I want to meet her.” Just a few broken words and he took me straight to Parveena Ji and introduced me to her as his younger brother.

Then I was no more a stranger to her. She asked me to help her get up. She hugged me and kissed me.  Just as a mother shows love to her child. The moment she hugged me, I closed my eyes in her arms, and started telling her in my mind,” Mother don’t worry I am with you in your fight against injustice.”
I basked in her undivided attention for 15 long minutes. It was 15 full minutes longer I spent with her, more than any other young person I saw in the park.  I cried inside all through the seconds which I spent with her. When I sat down, I congratulated myself. I had done a good job. I had met her finally.

As the months wore on, I started going to the APDP office, sometimes to get their annual calendar, sometimes to check out the date for the coming protest, and mostly hoping to meet Jiji. But I have always failed. I never had the chance to see her again.
I am still struggling to meet her and sometimes also wonder about hundreds of students who wish to meet her and talk to her.
She is inspiring and beloved of us all. I hope to meet her soon.

The Day of Sabzar's Funeral

The edited version of this piece first appeared in the Kashmir Lit on 3rd June, 2017.

By Sheikh Saqib

On an exceptionally hot Saturday morning, I along with my friends was riding to a village, to explore the destined place and trek its mountains. We stopped a few kilometers back and bought some junk food and bottles of soft drink and mineral water. Everyone was excited about the trip and scared too, for we were told by a friend who had visited the place a few weeks ago, that he was chased by a contingent of army and labeled as a militant, by army personnel shouting at him,’ you are a militant, stop stop!.’ He says that it was his luck that his urgent steps towards the main road saved him from what he calls aliens.

Our excitement was stroke by fear. As we came closer and closer to our destiny, fear started accompanying us but it was our love for the place that kept us going. We started looking around on every ticking of the clock, just to make sure that no army personnel is around. The speed of our vehicle started reducing, we were now fully into the area of our destiny.

We stationed our vehicles in which looked like a parking area and started looking for a place to sit and have some food. For some minutes we forgot about the incident that had happened to our friend and started enjoying ourselves. We started enjoying our food, feeling blessed to have born in what we felt that time a paradise. We were surrounded by mountains, rushing water flowing at a distance. We were happy and wanted to stay there for the rest of our lives.

But how come happiness in a conflict-ridden place. We forgot that we live in a place where anyone can be killed anytime. As we started our trek, we took pictures of a group of sheep’s that were subjected to follow their leader, the shepherd. We clicked pictures of everybody that we met on our route. We clicked pictures of each other. We were enjoying. We were happy. But as soon as we stepped on the next track in order to reach the top of the mountain, a friend got a call from home. A call of disappointment.

As soon as he picked up the call I felt a sudden stop in his steps. We went curious and started enquiring the reason behind.

He and all of us came to know that the top Hizb-ul-Mujahidin commander Sabzar has been shot dead in south Kashmir’s Tral area and people from every corner of the Valley are mourning and protesting against the killing of the militant leader. I was startled on hearing the news of Sabzar’s death; bordering on panic.

We, in our full trekking gear, were only thinking how to reach the top. But this sudden news made us tense. Our excitement was ruined. We went through the feeling of sadness.

It would have been a tough call to continue the trek. Parents and siblings started calling, one after another, just to ensure we were safe. We started making calls to close associates just to know the situation in the city center and adjoining areas. We were told that the situation is worst and should come back home as soon as possible.

We started retracing our steps. We started riding back home. We started riding past the whole area we had come for. Everyone looked disappointed and tense. Anything that came through refused to overtake our worry. We were all lost in our own thoughts.

As soon as we stroke the main road, that showed us the way to home, it was densely surrounded by tall trees on its peripheries. I searched the road for people I had seen in the morning, the line of shopping stores which were trafficked by people in order to buy their essentials. Everything was shut down and I could only see large grey smoke of tear gas shells storming the beautiful Himalayan sky. I could not locate any of the policemen or the mourners either, but just the lumps of smoke coming out of everywhere.

The thuds coming out from the barrel of the guns started grappling our attention. We were on the road, all on ourselves. Knowing all well that bullets differentiate the gender least we sensed a danger. Danger of might getting hit by tear gas shells, pellets or a bullet, in the coming moments. Danger that could leave a nation to mourn.

Amid the gun shots, anti-India slogans started reverberating the whole surroundings leaving all worried. I could hear the intensity of the protests getting higher and higher and the armed forces in return would answer with gunshots and teargas shells and everything that makes an explosion on the mourners.

On different roads, that we took to reach home, we heard many people shouting different slogans. We heard different messages;

“Bharat tere mout aayi”

“there is only one solution; gun solution gun solution”

“tum kitney jawan maroogai hr ghar se jawan niklaiga“….

But the most repeated message was

‘Hum Kya chahetay – ‘Azadi!’

' We are a powerless people fighting for justice '

The piece first appeared in the Greater Kashmir mag, Kashmir Ink's issue of 'Why Protest' on 14th May, 2017.

By Sheikh Saqib

Wails continue to ring out from Kashmir’s homes. Our elders continue to shoulder the coffins of our young. Bullets and pellets continue to rain on us. Young boys and girls continue to be crippled. Is this what we were born for?

We are beaten, maimed and killed just for registering our protest against injustice.

My teacher once asked me, “Who has more respect than the prime minister of a country?” I couldn’t imagine who that could be. “Student,” my teacher had said.

But one would be forgiven for not believing my teacher after seeing how brutally the students who tried to protest against the crackdown on fellow students in Pulwama were dealt with by the so-called security forces. I saw boys and girls my age mercilessly beaten and abused.

It brought back the chilling memory of the winter morning I and my two friends, riding to school on my two-wheeler, were stopped by a group of army men near Lal Chowk. They welcomed us with angry faces and asked us to show our school bags. One of the soldiers present came from behind and asked us to hand over the stones. He took our bags and searched them for stones. Except notebooks and some newly bought pens, he found nothing. He handed back the bags and told us to go. But as we started, he kicked us one by one and abused us. He even abused my mother and, for whatever reason, Pakistan. We were in tears by the time we finally left. I felt helpless, humiliated.

Another time, I was standing at my window gazing at the silent road by my house. A contingent of soldiers came by and one of them lifted his shotgun, which I later came to know is used to hunt animals, towards me. I feared he would shoot at me and quickly shut the window. I made me feel like I was in a prison, chains wrapped so tightly around my body that even taking a breath is difficult.

We live in a place where we are denied every right. We have never known peace; we were born in conflict and live through it. We don’t even know if we can attend school tomorrow.
Dissent is curbed. What is so threatening about a student asking questions?

They won’t let us raise our voice peacefully, so we have taken up stones to express our dissent. The stone is the symbol of our resistance.